Turn On Begets Turn On
Today I was reminded of how turn on works. This morning I went to the farmer’s market with my friend Angela. There were a couple of reasons I needed to go; one of them being produce. The other being that the last time I was there, about a month ago, a beautiful man asked me for my phone number and I got so flustered that I walked away without giving it to him. This was towards the end of lockdown, after being alone in the house for two months and feeling some pretty serious aloneness. I was craving connection, but the energy of coming close to it completely short circuited me.
Today I went back with a piece of paper folded in my back pocket. I walked up to him and said “you asked me for this a while ago”, handed him the paper and walked away feeling so much better. As a friend pointed out, it really doesn’t matter what happened next, because I had turned towards the electricity of my own desire and that’s what’s important.
But what DID happen next is a fun story about turn on. A few hours later, the beautiful man texted and asked me if I was free to meet. We made a plan for dinner at a small place 10 minutes from my house. I was excited, it felt sparkly and fun. At 6:30pm I walked down the hill towards the restaurant. Every day I walk that hill around the same time of the evening, but today I had a little extra bounce in my step. And you know what happened? Half way down, a car drove past, did a u-turn and pulled up in front of me. The driver, another beautiful man, rolled down his window and said “I had to turn around and tell you how gorgeous you are, can I have your number?”. An important thing to know is that I’ve maybe been approached 4 times in my life by someone asking for my number. Usually I keep my energy close to my chest in a way that blocks it; I’m an introvert like that. But tonight, I knew I felt good and it transmitted.
Turn on does that. It’s magnetic. And when we allow the electricity of our desire to flow, it feels good to people around us. It makes us more generous and playful. And connection becomes that much more abundant in the world. At least, that was life’s reminder to me tonight.